What am I doing?

After many years I have finally caved. I now have a blog. I always said I would never start one. Who on earth wants to read about my ramblings? But this is for no one but me. All my life I have kept a journal. How is this any different....except it's online. I don't write any of this with the intention that people will read it. If they do then so be it.
So I guess the first thing that springs to mind when thinking about what to write is my first proper week back in Nottingham and back at university. After 3 years away I have just spent the last 7 days trying to find my feet. Getting to grips with a city that has changed in my absence. Living with 5 strangers who know nothing about my past. Trying to eat and not allow my OCD or anxieties disrupt my life. The hardest hurdle..... going back to classes. Something I did not achieve. Not one single class. The thought of being back in that room, with other students, under pressure? It terrifies me. There are so many 'what ifs......' BUT I have worked so damn hard to get back here. I will not allow anything to stop me from getting my degree. Tomorrow is a new day. I will attend uni next week. Hell it will be hard work. But I'm known for rising to a challenge.